In a recent  interview for Lillian Garcia’s Chasing Glory podcast, Paige opened up about some of the controversies that have transpired in her personal life over the past year. Below are some highlights:

On the leaked footage of her: “I’m not a bad person. I don’t want to be known as someone like that, that’s not me. People make mistakes. I’ve made a ton of mistakes, and that was one of them. I was young, I was dumb, and I was 19 [or] 20 years old. I was dumb. And those are the kinds of things I want to tell girls. Social media is a big thing these days, [and] cameras are a big thing. Just be careful what you do with it because you never know what you’re going to be doing in your future. And I was already in this position where I knew I could have made something of myself but I still made a stupid mistake. And now that’s something I have to live with every time I walk down the street. People can see every part of me and that makes me sad. I make jokes about it all the time because it helps me heal, but when [I] hear someone degrade me I feel like I don’t deserve that because that wasn’t my fault. When that came out, I barricaded myself in the house for a couple of months. I was so sad, to the point that I was contemplating suicide. I was so sad. And that’s why I was doing so much stupid stuff. I was drinking heavily. I wasn’t doing drugs at that point, [although] I had done drugs before. I was in a really bad place…”

“I just hate the fact that I’m going to be known for that. Literally in every article it’s not just ‘Paige, WWE wrestler who was WWE Divas Champion, did this, Total Divas that.’ It’s the WWE sex tape scandal stuff. And it’s always headlined like that. And I don’t want to be remembered like that. It breaks my heart, and I was literally on the floor, I was so low. I got so skinny. I ended up collapsing with exhaustion in a hospital in England. They told me at the time it was sort of like stress induced anorexia. But my family was there and Alberto at the time was there too. I collapsed. I wasn’t eating [or] sleeping. I lost all my hair. I have clip ins right now, but I literally had no hair because my hair fell out because I was so stressed. I was so sick. And no one knows about that. I haven’t told a soul or anyone that I was in the hospital but I was there. It just broke my heart. Like why would someone want to do that to someone? And that’s again with the trust issues, I can’t trust a lot of people. Why would you put stuff out there of someone like that? Why would you want to invade someone’s privacy, like what does it give you?”

“Luckily I’ve never done anything after that because I got smart to it. But that was before the video tapes even came out. Just don’t record stuff. You don’t have to make someone happy by doing that kind of stuff. And that’s exactly what I thought I was doing, I [thought] I was trying to make someone happy…I felt like I was definitely degrading myself. [Xavier] Woods is a really nice guy. He’s actually my friend, great guy, so I also feel bad for him. I was just degrading myself as a woman, and I would never want another woman to do what I did. It’s an experience that I personally learned from, especially now. Don’t do that for someone you think that you like or you think that you love when in reality you don’t. You’re just clouded by what you think is love. I would just tell everyone, men and women, you do not want that stuff out there about you, you do not. Because everyone’s seen what you have had for breakfast pretty much. You have to think about your families. My nieces and nephews have to see it. When I was with my ex his kids had to go to school, and his kids were getting crap from it. And I have to live with that. My family is very supportive, but still. My nieces and nephews have to deal with them saying ‘Oh your aunt is a porn star’ and stuff like that. And that’s not me. That’s not me at all. I’m far from it. I’m not that person.”

On her failed drug test: “I was very embarrassed. Because the first one wasn’t actually from drugs, [it was from] not doing it in the allotted time. Which is kind of my bad, but it was a very confusing situation. I don’t know what happened there. The physical drug test passed, but the second one that was me being stupid.”

“At that time I was very embarrassed. And I was like ‘Okay I have to try and cover this up somehow.’ And I lied to my family about it too. I told them it was this and it wasn’t. And I tried to make myself not look terrible. Because I built myself on being this role model that [says] be yourself [and] you can do whatever you want. Not this person that’s running around doing drugs and partying all the time. I never wanted to be that person at all. So I was just so humiliated because it was everywhere. And obviously WWE had to cover themselves because I said something that was completely inappropriate. But I was like ‘Huh what do I do?’ I was never mad at WWE for doing that. It was kind of the kick up butt that I needed.”

On her first match back against Sasha Banks: “I was so scared. I was petrified. I had anxiety all day and I was just like ‘oh my god’ and I was running around…backstage. I couldn’t get my crap together. I just felt like I couldn’t get it together. Luckily all my friends came which was really nice. I had all my friends there. They were the biggest supporters. Probably the loudest ones in the arena they were nuts. They helped me kind of be okay. And then Sasha too. Me and Sasha aren’t close at all. We’re not close. But she’s so professional at what she does. And she’s good at what she does and I respect that. I have a lot of respect for Sasha. And she helped me through that match. Like if it were someone else I feel like it [wouldn’t have been] the way it was. But she definitely helped me through the match and I will always thank her for that. I will give credit where it is due [because] she is a fantastic wrestler. And not once did she put me in a position where I could get hurt or where she pushed me too hard. She always thought about stuff before in the match. That’s why I seem kind of [clustered] in the beginning because we were trying to adjust and get back together. We were trying to get that vibe back. But she’s such an easy person to work with. So that’s something I will always remember and I’ll always thank her for.”

“It was fantastic. I just loved the finish of it, like her getting me in her finisher, the crowd going crazy [and] getting the people involved. And then boom me hitting her with the RamPaige and everyone was like ‘ahhh!’ It was great. It felt good. And then I had a lot of relief after that because I was like ‘Okay I got the match done out of the way, I feel good.’ I had another segment later on, so I was just like ‘Thank god I don’t have to wrestle anymore I am broken.’ But it felt really good. And I’ll always thank Hunter and Vince obviously for giving me the opportunity to do that. And giving me the time to do it too. Like they gave me enough time to do whatever I wanted and even handed us more time if we needed it. It was just fantastic and it feels really good.”

On her relationship with Alberto at this point: “At this point, we were out in the public eye so much that a lot of the time I don’t want to talk about it. But what I will say about Alberto is obviously we had our ups and downs like a normal couple will. We had really bad times, really good times and it’s just one of those things. I don’t hate him in any way, shape or form. And he doesn’t hate me in any way, shape or form.”

“I’m glad that we can be adults about this. We always thought that the people were going to break us. But that’s not the case. It’s just like, ‘Okay we’ve come to this end of the road right now. Like I have to go do this and you have to go do that. Let’s just leave it like that. You go be with your family. I need to go fix my life. I need to fix myself.’ And that’s exactly what I did. And we were coming up to times where it was like ‘Lets let people know.’ And I was so burned out about the media knowing everything about me, I was like ‘Please don’t say anything about me right now. Please just don’t. I don’t want even the slightest thing about our relationship on there anymore. I just don’t want people to know my business.'”

“We ended fine and we’re fine now. It is what it is. I leave him alone completely now. We hardly speak to each other. It’s better off that way. [But] I want him to be happy [and] I want him to be even more successful because his kids are beautiful and he has a fantastic family. So I want him to be successful and I want him to be happy. Maybe he’ll find a woman that is not so on the internet. Maybe he can find a nice low key lady. I just want him to be happy. Like you go do you and I’ll go do me. But I’ll never hate him.”

In this interview, Paige also discusses her beginnings in the wrestling business, her family, Sonya Deville and Mandy Rose, and much more.

The full interview can he heard at this link.

What are you looking forward to seeing Paige do now that she’s back?

 

  • albert albie aldahawi

    Wouldn’t mind seeing Paige win the rumble. She’s in my top 4 left standing for sure!

    • Nadia

      I think she’s challenging Alexa at the Rumble and is winning.

      • albert albie aldahawi

        God I hope so! In that case if Paige was to be champ at Mania I would love to see her defend against Sasha or Asuka!!

        • Izzy4lw

          I’d prefer Paige get a longer reign, but I’d LOVE for Paige to tak the title at Rumble and successfully defend against Sasha or Nia or a rematch against Bliss at Mania – then the night after Mania Asuka can come after Absolution and start their feud in earnest, since I think Asuka/Absolution feud would be AMAZING and should get a lot of time.

        • Nadia

          All great ideas. I think the plan is Paige wins, Asuka wins the Rumble and we see that one on one at Mania. I feel like Sasha is either turning heel OR she is joining the rest of the Horsewomen to go up against Rousey and crew. Either way I’m good with these plans floating around.

  • Nadia

    “..I barricaded myself in the house for a couple of months. I was so sad, to the point that I was contemplating suicide. I was so sad. And that’s why I was doing so much stupid stuff. I was drinking heavily. I wasn’t doing drugs at that point, [although] I had done drugs before. I was in a really bad place…”

    The interview was so emotional. Paige has been through it. She isn’t blameless in everything that went down but I’m glad she was able to pick herself back up and get her life back on track.

    I really think Paige is winning the Title soon and I couldn’t be happier for her. What she said about Sasha is why I love Sasha and she is the face of the division to me.

  • Izzy4lw

    This is once again the inherent misogyny in people – Paige made an error, and people ganged up on her for it – but neither man got the crap she did. There were people on THIS VERY site claiming she should be released for what happened with the title, but not one cry about the men who were in the video. At the end of the day, Paige was young and someone took advantage of that; She absolutely is not perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but this is a woman who grew up in front of us and who made decisions that a lot of people her age make; the only difference is that she’s well known. It sucks that she was in such a low place because of what was being said about her. I’m glad she was able to bounce back and is getting herself together, because she can offer a whole hell of a lot to any division she’s in.

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  • Hoooshi

    This was such a good listen and insightful interview. I’m glad Lilian gives people the platform to be honest about their lives, her interviews are always great.

    The way she talked about the whole incident makes me feel like Maddox cohersed her into doing the photos and if so he is an awful human being for taking advantage of a young girl like this. I’m glad to know she’s in a better place now and seems to be happier and can’t wait to see what’s next for her in her career.

    • Izzy4lw

      Maddox is the one who leaked the photos right? I can’t remember if that was ever verified or not, but it was going around right after they came out.

      • Hoooshi

        I don’t know, but I think here Paige implied that he did? Otherwise she would have said a third part leaked them.

      • chrissi calvert

        It was alleged he was behind the leak but i dont think it was ever proven

  • Jo9834

    Honestly my hats off to Paige, yes she isn’t blameless in the situation, but the fact that she’s walked through so much at a young age, will serve her well in years to come.

    There was a point and time where people thought she would NEVER return, so seeing her back and in full swing (at the top of the division) is truly incredible. I love how she acknowledged the WWE in such a positive light, and also Hunter and Vince for giving them that extended amount of time for her first match back, it felt special.

    I do question why she mentions that Sasha and her aren’t close, but I do LOVE the fact that Sasha made it work for her, and really put Paige over. I think they have great chemistry and Sasha is a true professional in and out and it shows,

  • She went through SO much over the last 17 months and I’m so proud of her for conquering it all! I refused to give up on her, and I’m glad she didn’t give up on herself! Can’t wait for her to be the next Raw Women’s Champion ???? https://uploads.disquscdn.com/images/8587f05fee8b818d77dc67eff1a7d1aeed5c8279ab1c340ba1d86ca3dc536df6.jpg

  • StraightUpBitch

    She deserves all the love and support in the world. I will never say a bad word against her, she hasn’t done anything wrong, and irregardless how I feel about her relationship with Alberto, she was a young woman in love. I also loved this interview (obviously but I’m still gonna state that!). She didn’t hold back, she was emotional and let her guard down, which is something few women do, she was honest about the fact she’s not close to some of the girls (I mean, I love Sasha and everyone else, but the fact they unfollowed her after everything kinda sucked especially because she could of needed some familiar faces around her) and she exposed that snake Brad. May he rot in hell for how she gets treated and for leaking videos her and Xavier didn’t want out there, but hey I guess sometimes toxic masculinity causes men to do disgusting things

  • NOT Released Emma

    IMHO its in the past people should move on Paige apologise for what happen. If she can move on everybody else should move on.

  • YonceLuvsDivas

    In my heart I knew this girl was going through it. She was nonexistent on social media and with all this stuff happening I couldn’t imagine her walking around being happy. Especially with the ignorant trolls on the internet.

  • jabril

    It just seems like a bit of mental illness and she was just in the wrong places at the wrong time. She just needs support and not be so scrutinized for her actions , YOUNG actions. We all make mistakes and we all share the cruelty of this world . I think it’s time to give Paige a break because she is a star.

  • Nicola Byrne

    A good god!! you have to feel sorry for her!!

  • Peace ??

    This interview was beautifully done and beautifully put together! I have a lot to say on this, but all I’m gonna say is, what I take from this interview is, she’s came out the other end stronger, smarter, wiser and more beautiful! I’m so glad that she’s showing brad that yes he hurt her, but he didn’t break her and that she won’t let him win. And that ladies and gentlemen is how it’s done! It’s so wonderful seeing her come out better and on top out of this whole mess! She talks about giving credit where it’s due? Well Paige, here’s our credit! Thank you. You came out stronger, wiser, smarter and to top it off, you’ve beaten brad!

  • It was an amazing interview. Lilian is so good with these girls, she makes them tell us all with no shame. I’m happy for Paige, everything bad that could happen to someone happened to her in the past year – injury, surgery, two wellness suspensions, leaks, and all the controversy with Del Rio.

    But as we all saw she’s back, happy and with the same spark she had before. I’m glad she rose above it.

    • Allyn

      She really has been to hell and back, I’m glad she is finding happiness again.

  • Dylan Gutierrez

    I really felt for her and always rooted for her return when so many people were wanting her fired or released. It’s heartbreaking what happened to her as a child with her mother, the leaks and the effects it had on her and seeing her come a long way now with the Absolution storyline and no one chanting Woods or Maddox during her promos or when she appears. I hope she wins a few title reigns soon in this next chapter of her WWE career.

    It’s a shame some moron is still leaking photos and videos of her. Apparently, they have hours of it and are doing it deliberately. I hope she’s surrounded by good friends and family at the moment and being on the road keeps her busy and a good place.

  • Tina

    It really says a lot about Paige and how much WWE believes in her. HHH and Vince obviously love her and see something in her because I honestly feel like if it was various other people in her shoes they would have gotten released. I’ve always rooted for Paige and I would loveee to see her or Sasha win the rumble. (She kinda hinted at her and Sasha not getting along huh?)

    • Like Mike

      As much as I Love Sasha, seems she only really gets along with Bayley.

      • spilledtea

        Yeah and Sasha seems to be the type to get along more with guys than girls.

        • Like Mike

          Yeah I could see that, she’s probably pretty tight with Rollins, New Day ext.

      • Tina

        Yeah Sasha is my fav but I’ve noticed that too?

      • Jorge Hernandez Moran

        Well she’s close with Dana, Emma, The Bellas, Naomi and Tamina too.

        • Like Mike

          Didn’t know about Dana, Emma or The Bella’s, but I definitely forgot she was cool with Naomi and Tamina.

    • Can’tGetNo…Stratusfaction

      I interpreted it as they aren’t super close and don’t know each other that well. Like at any other job, there are people you’re super tight with and others who you just work with. That’s different from not liking someone.

      • Tina

        Idk she emphasized pretty good on them not being close “At all.” ? Sasha’s my girl but she seems the type to have beef with plenty

      • MK126

        Werent they in NXT for a while together? So they definitely know each other but like you said there are those at work who you are super tight with and the others you’re not as tight but you don’t have beef with

      • GLAMPIREQUEEN

        They used to be close. You can find old pictures of them together, but Sasha unfollowed Paige during her second suspension, I believe, so it’s clear they had a falling out or drifted apart. I’m glad they can at least be professional and work a match, they’re both young and marketable and among the most popular girls they have, so they better get used to working together for many, many years to come lol.

  • QueenSableBomb

    I feel for her, oh my gosh. Collectively, everyone treated her terribly, when she should’ve been consoled. It’s funny how the men didn’t catch nearly as much flack as she did…hm. Either way, I’m glad she’s in a much better place doing what she loves ?

  • Allyn

    Love love love Paige I wasn’t expecting her to open up like she did but I’m glad she did, she is a star and an amazing wrestler, I’m so happy to see her back in action, I did have my doubts about her but I never counted her out I really want her to continue to thrive!

  • Nathan

    I didn’t know they broke up. Where have I been ?

  • Trench158

    “The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places” – Ernest Hemingway.

    She went through hell and came back, I don’t think anything can stop her now. So good of Trips and the McMahon’s to stick with her through all of this. It would have been easy for them to cut her loose. But instead they showed her that they still have faith in her.

  • Isaiah Newbie

    First of all, Paige can record whatever she wants. It’s her body and if she consented to recording sexual acts on camera that is her choice and no one else’s business. The real problem is that someone posted the videos/photos without her consent.

  • MK126

    I like how she didn’t mention Maddox in the interview at all and that she was more worried about Woods would look more than Maddox. Definitely makes it seem like he’s the one who’s leaking the videos. As for everything else shes been through at such a young age and given how free spirited her family seems she could have ended up in a worse situation so I’m glad she realized who she was before it was too late. When you’re so young and feel like drinking/drugs/other acts of rebellion are your only ways out your rationality goes out of the window. Thankfully she didn’t lose herself to such things and made sure she came back stronger than ever.

  • GOD STRATUS•

    All hail The Bo$$ ???

  • GLAMPIREQUEEN

    I absolutely love that she is taking a completely negative situation and turning it into a positive by spreading the reality and awareness of cyber bullying and how much it affects everyone including celebrities and popular figures that for whatever reasons internet trolls seem to believe are immune to it, when they get a TON of it on the daily. Her coming back and smiling in the faces of all her haters, doubters and every obstacle truly makes her a hero. Her entire story is so inspiring, because it would have been easy for her to walk away, but instead she never gave up and came back in spite of these 40 year old, straight males living in their parent basements swearing that she would never return. She has all of my respect for the woman that she is and, best believe she really did get THAT last laugh.

  • Sable’s Bumps

    so Paige and Sasha hate each other. thats all i got from that :)

  • Paige is so humble and nice, hate people who criticize her like they were so good in life. Love Paige and hope she conquer the title.